Help I'm Hurting

Fibromyalgia…ugh! I know there is nothing anyone can do to help with the pain. I only ask that you be patient with me and understanding when I bite your head off! Yea, that is a lot to ask. Pain sucks. I’ve been up for the past 2 hours (it is now 6:30am) and 1600mg of ibuprophen has not taken an edge off the pain. We might need to move up to vicodin! I started feeling the flare, if you will, coming on day before yesterday when clouds started making their appearance and I started losing my grip. Last night was not doing well at all. When I’m in pain, I lose all train of thought, start going in circles, and really just become a total bitch. This is called fibro fog.

I feel the majority of the pain in my shoulders and it feels so good to sit in the spa and let the jets massage that area. However, cold hurts me and now that it is cool outside when I step out of the spa, I’m back to ugly pain again. This, in my fibro mind, defeats the purpose of sitting in the spa.

For the most part, I’m usually a person thinking that my glass is half full, but during this pain I’m pretty sure that my glass is half empty. This fibro experience reminds me of the cycle of domestic violence. Right now I’m in the abusive phase knowing that the honeymoon phase should start soon, but I don’t know when!